Could it be lust? Could it be love?

Is it lust that brought us together?
What do you see in me my darling?
Am I just another woman you lusted for?

I let you kissed me 
I let you touched me
Even if I know that we can never be together

The circumstances of being with you
oh it's too much for me
I wonder if it brings me more woes 
or if it heals the broken heart within

The heart that yearns for love
The heart that yearns for you
Your kiss and your touch
The heart that wants you to only want me...

Let's Pretend

Dance with me
Dance and oh this sweet sweet melody
Let's pretend that we're the only ones that exist

Close your eyes
Close them oh so tight
And let's pretend that things would be much better than this

Walk with me
Walk with me side by side
And let's pretend that this journey will never end

Hold my hands
Hold them with all your strength
And let's pretend that it will stay that way forever

Different

I see you are a lover; a friend
or maybe you just know your way of treating a lady
To make a girl feels more like a woman
Yet the visible broken pieces 
No wonder you are the best shoulder to cry on

The joy comforts this soul
One could mistake it for passion
Perhaps it is ...

The warmness of falling asleep in your arms
to feel your kisses and touch
A gaze into the windows of your soul
Calms this terrible storm within

Dark Love

“The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space.” ― Marilyn Monroe

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She once knew a man who would treat her like a princess

Sometimes she wondered why he had never found his princess

She was not his princess and they accepted it well

Perhaps it was his dark past

Perhaps it was him being mysterious

There were lots of 'perhaps' when being with him

And she wished that tings would be much more easier for her - lesser 'perhaps'

He knew what he was doing

She knew it ... 

He was imperfect. He was not flawless

But his kindness, his charm, his courage, his way of treating her with respect 

He was never selfish - he wanted to please her

These made her thought for a while

Where could his princess be?

Definitely not me, she whispered

She was quite certain about it ... or perhaps not

It was a pity ... Indeed it was a loss

Perhaps he has one or used to

She had one but that's history

Focus...

He made her heart beat twice faster

She knew it all along

Perhaps he knew it too

She was not fooling around

She just wanted to get the affection she missed out 

It would be awkward 

But who cares?

People might find out

But who cares?

It might ruin her

But who cares?

She cares...

She does care...

And that would be her biggest mistake.

The spark between them was too strong

Oh it was very strong indeed

Very very strong - I can assure you

Because, if it was not strong, her pillows would not be soaked in tears.

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She wanted to run ... she wanted to leave

She needed the comfort ... assurance that everything would be fine

That was all she needed. For now. 

The Untitled One

Love is dangerous game ...

Let me tell you a story about a girl. A girl who just wanted to have fun and live her life to the fullest. Her frustration towards life broke her inside out. 

She has a boyfriend and they were quite happy until now ...

She never felt contented when she was with him. It was more of her emotional and sexual sides. 
She knew he could never made her happy.
It was always about him. It was never about her. He was self-centred. 

Not to mention his unpredictable actions which affected her in certain ways. 
His beliefs ... everything was not right. At least, that was what she thought.

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Her frustrations and disappointments led her to fall deep into a dangerous game of love and deceit. 

All she wanted was to have her dreams come true. She failed; so screw it, she said.

She felt disgusted with herself. 
She was afraid. 
The truth is she didn't even know what she was afraid about. 
Her heart beat faster than before. 

But yet, she didn't want it to stop. Not now.

Mind Having a Long Distance Relationship???

So guys, let us talk a little on LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS... 

Yes, I do believe that some of you guys must had experienced long distance relationships before or if not, perhaps you have seen others experienced it. Well, I have several friends who somehow experienced long distance relationships at some point of their lives with their partners. I have seen them trying their best to speak with their girlfriends/boyfriends all the time through instant messages, Yahoo Messenger, Whatsapp, Facebook, Twitter and Skype. I must say that I realized that there is a 50/50 chance of people surviving long distance relationships when I witnessed each one of my friends broke up with their partners back in their hometown and moved on with new people they met in campuses or workplaces. For those who survived through long distance relationships, they used to tell me that as long as there is enough communication, trust, commitments and sacrifices between both, then everything will be alright but seriously, is it substantial?  

I have seen couples breaking up just because they think that their relationship will never work if both are far away from each other. I used to wonder about what makes long distance relationships too difficult for some and I finally came up with a conclusion when I spoke to a guy friend few days ago. He explained to me that the reason long distance relationship is too difficult for him is not because he had to update his ex-girlfriend of what he was doing and where he went all the time but it was because there were times when he might need his girlfriend to be with him and she was unable to do that due to the distance. He also complained to me that he was unable to 'touch' his girlfriend and he said 'touch' is very important for him, not in a bad way though, but it was more like hugging, cuddling and walking hand in hand with each other.

So, I had to relate what my guy friend told me and what the priest said during a seminar I attended at my parish. He told us that the largest human organ is the skin itself and later explained that the sense of touch is very important for us humans and it is used mostly to touch and express our love between one another. This is because we Christians, believe that God created us with the needs to love and to be loved.  He also mentioned to the whole congregations that humans need to hug their loved ones at least twelve times a day in order to avoid themselves from the deprivation of love. At first, I was amused on what the priest had just said but then as I gave it another thought before going to bed that night, I realized that he was actually right. Why did God created us with the sense of touch and why is our skin is known to be the largest human organ if it is not to be used wisely and for those reasons I mentioned above - cuddles, hugs and holding hands? 

I finally understood the things my guy friend said to me when I started to relate his words with what the priest said to us.

What my guy friend actually meant was all he ever wanted was to express his love through the sense of touch and even if his girlfriend was always 'VIRTUALLY'  there for him, yet he still thinks that it is not enough for him.

"It will NEVER be ENOUGH for me.." was his exact words.

If  touching is the way for people to express love, then, I think it is important for couples, husbands and wives, children and parents and siblings to hug each other in order to sustain relationships. And the priest is right when he told us that the reason broken families and relationships exist are because there is a lack expression of love and communication between them. For example, husbands no longer hug, touch or talk to their wives, children no longer kiss or hug their parents before bed or when they wake up every morning and couples rarely cuddle, hug, talk and hold each other hands. 

Anyway, I am not trying to infer that long distance relationships do not work because couples are unable to express their love towards each other by hugging or cuddling. I was merely trying to share with you guys about the reason I think why most long distance relationships failed to work. Some couples managed to survive long distance relationships and it involved a lot of sacrifices, time and commitments. I understand it is not easy to be in one but if you think that the person you love is worth it, why not try giving it a shot? 

However, I also DO NOT guarantee that communications, commitments and time are enough to sustain a relationship especially for those couples who are far away from each other. Just remember that it actually takes two persons to make it happen and even if you think you had done everything in order to save your relationship, you can never avoid things to happen. I mean you guys ARE  far away from each other...

Just think about it guys, even couples who are close to each other and those who are married for YEARS are prone to break up and divorce, what else for those of you who are currently in long distance relationships? 

Feelings changed, people changed and things happened unexpectedly... 

I am not trying to discourage you guys out there but it had happened to people. I have seen seven years of relationship destroyed in just a blink of an eye due to this. 

It happened to my friends.

It happened to me...

When a person is being touched by God

When a person is being touched by God...

It is beautiful
It is wonderful
It is lovely
It is amazing
It is everything 

Indeed, 
it is the greatest experience one could ever had.
Like a power coming
out from one's own being.

She cried for joy
She craved for more
Perhaps it is true that one will never be satisfied by the great love of God.

She wants things
She wants everything
She used to think that at times, she would confuse God
with her worldly desires
and results of envy

She never realized that having God's love is enough...

Be contented of what you have and own.
Be happy of what you got and received.
Seek God's will and He will provide.

How could she be so deaf to listen to the words of God?
How could she be so ignorant?

But I tell you,
when a person is touched by God,

She will know that God will never abandon her
She knows He does things in His time...
and she will wait patiently for the day to arrive

She will glorify God...
She will proclaim to the whole world the GREATNESS of God
God is her one true Lover...
and God will never abandon her...

God knows what is best for His daughter...
Although she is sinful and disobedient most of the times

But God is so good
He is good all the time.
She will TRUST God.